Wow the days pass quickly….how is it over a month since I started this new blog up? Where is the time going? Already February 20, 2012. This year is going to be gone before you know it.
Actually the time has been going fast ever since we got engaged. We planned so that we would have a year and a half before getting married and now we are down to just 80 days until the big day! Not to say that we haven’t been crazy busy in the time since. Actually I have been near crazy busy and my big focus has been trying to look amazing for the big day!
Right now I am sitting happily at 160lbs…down 75 lbs from last year. It’s hard to believe that I lost that much this past year. Especially since it took me so long to finally buckle down and do things right. For so very long I kept putting things off, I would always plan to start tomorrow…or I would give up by the end of the day because of one little slip up. However the proof is in the pictures. We took our engagement photos on Feb 12 this year and one of my bridesmaids sent me this picture from Feb 13th of last year. I think that it serves as a very telling before and after….
It’s hard to believe that those pounds made such a difference in my life. The way I feel about myself, the way I present myself to others….I feel like my whole life is different. Of course it does help that I am about to undertake a huge life change anyhow!
So what made the difference? How did I do it? What is the magic secret thing that made me drop the weight and finally find myself back in jeans I haven’t worn since I was sixteen? Man that is tricky. I always used to get so frustrated when I went to a successful weight loss blog and there was never a miracle answer and no magic cure. They never had the right answer for me it seemed…and unfortunately I fear that I won’t have the right answer for you either. As much as weight loss is put under the microscope, as much as we laugh and joke about it here in blogs and forums, it is an intensely personal thing. We gain the weight for personal reasons, we lose it for personal reasons, and all the madness between is such an intimate battle between ourselves and who we wish to be…well that is the reason there is no magic cure. Some days you are winning the war and some days you aren’t. Some soldiers can fight through it with ferocity and intense physical punishment, and some and only put one foot in front of the other as we simply try to carry on.
But I can tell you one thing…you can do this. You will in fact do this. Maybe not today or tomorrow but you will win at this battle. You are going to find the end of the rainbow, you are going to one day look in the mirror and like the reflection you see, all you have to do is hold your head up high and keep marching on.
